Was I despised so much

For my singularities 

Was I so different 

That I didn’t belong 

Diving in the night

It’s where my restless soul

Awaken way before dawn

Way before the light and the sun

Way before the chant of birds 

And it’s in the night 

In the unconventional ways 

Of the most hopeless places

That my soul

Find the freedom

Freedom it craves in those busy days

Of mindless sorrows

A race against time

Exhausted souls running 

For an end to it’s own start

I pity their ways of living

While I ache every morning 

Completely unaware

Of their own surroundings 

Ironically filled with envy

Wishing that I could be like them

Completely unaware 

To my own suffering 

I can’t keep up with the noises

Nor I can keep up with the laughters 

I wait for the darkness 

While they run and run and run

I don’t think I belong 

Even the light is blinding me

The second I look up for the stars

I was never meant to be like them 

I was never meant to find comfort

In the light or in the movement

I was meant for the silence 

Peaceful and consistent 

Maybe I’m the darkness I seek

Maybe I’m the glitch in the matrix

Maybe I’m the shadows of days

Maybe I’m the night in a different shape 

But I was never meant to be like them

I was never meant to run blindly

I was never meant to keep up

With their ideas of normalcy 

Was I despised so much

For my singularities 

Was I so different 

That I didn’t belong 

Was I just falling 

From great heights 

Or great highs

Was I just a fallen angel 

In disguise